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On Flu Jabs and Sleep

I love curiosities!
Early on Friday afternoon I had my annual flu jab. By the evening I was beginning to feel meh. Yesterday I was fit for nothing; not full flu but everything except the severe body aches and high temperature. So I spent the day curled up under the duvet, mostly asleep. Not nice, but better this than having full-blown flu.
I understand why this can be a side-effect of the flu jab: basically it is an immune reaction to the (dead) bits of virus in the inoculation which stimulate the immune system to produce antibodies that protect against the real virus. So it is working as designed.


But what I don’t understand is why this only happens to some people and why it doesn’t happen consistently every year. When I first started having the flu jab it would make me feel mucky for half a day or so — maybe less. But three years ago the vaccine contained bird flu (or was it swine flu?) and that knocked me out for well over a week! (Unless I did actually catch flu at the same time I had the jab — unlikely, methinks.) Last year the inoculation flattened me a for a couple of days. This year it has done much the same.
Yes, OK, it is my immune system working as designed. But is this “excessive” reaction a sign that I have a good strong immune system that gets to work quickly and well? Or is it a sign that I have a weakened immune system which is struggling to catch up? Dunno.
I find this whole reaction (side-effect) curious.
Anyway, as I said, I spent yesterday curled up under the duvet. The curiosity here is “curled up”.
Now I normally sleep flat out. Either on my back or (more usually) on my front; and I always have done ever since I can remember. And Noreen will tell you I’m normally spread-eagled across the bed.
But yesterday I was curled up in a foetal position on my left side. I only ever do this when I’m ill. (Occasionally if very depressed I will curl in a foetal position on my right side; but never on my left side.) I’m guessing this is an ancient animal instinct to protect ones soft parts when most vulnerable (asleep). I’d also guess that being on my left side is because I am right-handed — this position leaves my stronger right hand free to smack any predator in the jaw. Maybe?
So just another curiosity.
I love curiosities!

Aren't You Dead Yet?

Yes, that is a serious question!
Average life expectancy has roughly doubled in the last 150 years. Whereas life expectancy at birth 150 years ago was around 35-40 years it is now around 80 years. (See Why are you not dead yet? which is an interesting read.) Well OK they’re figures for the US, but the UK and rest of the developed world isn’t much different. According to Wikipedia medieval life expectancy in the UK was 30 years, and was still only 31 years in the early 20th century. Indeed (according to World Bank data, via Google Public Data) UK life expectancy has risen 10 years in the last 50!


Forget airplanes, cars, nuclear weapons and the internet. This increase in life expectancy is probably the most important difference between our modern world and life 150 years ago.
Before the advent of modern medicine — and a lot of that has happened since World War 2 — infant and child mortality was incredibly high. And many of those who survived into adulthood were killed by accidents or disease which would be easily vanquished today. Just as an example, one of Noreen’s relatives about 100 years ago died in his mid-30s of erysipelas (St Anthony’s Fire), a bacterial skin infection which today would be quickly cured by antibiotics.
Remember that just because your direct ancestors lived into their 50s, 60s or even 80s, there were many children who died before puberty and hence are no-one’s direct ancestors. In the 19th century families of 10 or 12 children, with only one or two reaching adulthood, are not uncommon. And it was a lucky family which didn’t lose a single child even well into the 20th century.
In fact there is a good chance that you — yes, you reading this! — are already on your second or third life. And that is almost certainly down to either modern medicine or modern safety (think things like seat belts and air-bags).
In my late 20s I had appendicitis. It grumbled for a year or more until the medics decided what it was and removed the offending organ before it blew up. Without that medical intervention I would likely have died of peritonitis within a year or two. Noreen has similar stories — blood poisoning from an infected toe injury; a shattered left elbow (which would have been at least disabling). And we have both been extremely lucky with our health!
We all forget how common such diseases and injuries are and how much we have come to take for granted that they can be fixed. We also forget all those illnesses (smallpox, polio, whooping cough (aka. pertussis), measles) which we never or seldom see because of vaccination.
So tell me, please, why are you not dead yet? Without modern medicine what would have killed you? I’m curious to know.

Silly Age Meme

OK so Katyboo tagged me on Facebook in one of these silly memes. Well I did sort of invite it really, so it’s all self-inflicted — no change there then!
The meme is about what you were doing at some randomly assigned age …
Age I was given: 44
Where I lived: Greenford, West London
What I drove: Nothing; I don’t drive
What I did: Worked for IBM UK; Project Manager for deployment of laptops to all IBM employees in the UK
Who had my heart: The Norn who must be obeyed
Age now: 62
Where I live: Greenford, West London
What I drive: Nothing; I still don’t drive and may not now be allowed to even if I wanted to (which I don’t)
What I do: Retired; Hon. Secretary of Anthony Powell Society; Chairman of my doctors’ Patient Group; active member of HealthWatch Ealing
Who has my heart: The same Norn who must be obeyed
If you want to play this silly game, leave a comment and I’ll give you an age.

Five Questions, Series 4 #5

So, at last, we get to the final question of series 4 of Five Questions.

Question 5: What is the biggest obstacle that stands in your way right now?
There is only one possible answer to that … ME!
You think I’m joking? Then you’ve not seen the size of me!
What?! You want a more serious answer?! You mean that isn’t good enough?!
Well if you push me then the answer has to be (a) depression and (b) not enough hours in the day to get done what I want to do.
But isn’t that essentially the same for everyone? … There isn’t enough time and we just can’t push ourselves to do more.
– oo OO oo –

OK, that concludes Five Questions, Series 4. I’ll do another series in a few months.
Meantime, I would like questions to answer — ask anything and I will see if I can answer it. No promises though ‘cos you really don’t want to know about my … TMIA!

Gor Blimey!

Purely out of interest I’ve just done a count-back of my blogging activity.
I’ve been blogging properly, in several incarnations, since January 2004; and doing the equivalent by email since December 2001.
In that time I reckon I’ve written at least 2187 posts (not including this one). That’s an average of over 15 posts a month over that period — although the early days were much sparser and rate is higher in the last couple of years.
Everything since November 2006 should be here and accessible via the Archives or Categories listings on the right.
Earlier posts are available as PDF files on the website:
* January-October 2006 at zenmischief.com/files/zm_weblog_2006.pdf
* Everything Before 2006 at zenmischief.com/files/zm_weblog_pre2005.pdf

Grand Day Out

Today we went to Oxford. Just to meet up and have lunch with our friend Gabriella who is here from Sweden for a few days. We were all surprised to realise that the last time we met was in Washington, DC almost exactly 4 years ago! Which is somewhat scary. We all said the others hadn’t changed.
The friends Gabriella is staying with had recommended a Chinese restaurant called Shanghai 30s in St Aldates, almost opposite Christ Church (which is where Charles Dodgson, aka. Lewis Carroll, taught mathematics).
If you weren’t looking you’d miss the restaurant. It is in a slightly shabby but ordinary looking building, through a communal door and up a slightly seedy passage and stairway. Inside it is very definitely Chinese-colonial 1930s.


Do not be deceived, though. The food is everything the outside isn’t: sumptuous, delicious, slightly unusual, sizzling hot and beautifully presented.
We started with the Hors d’Oeuvre Platter (to share): Qi Family’s Almond Chicken; Champagne Spare Ribs; Crispy Ji-Li King Prawns; Veggie Spring Rolls. These were definitely finger food, but so hot you couldn’t pick them up. OK, so Spring Rolls are Spring Rolls, and everyone does King Prawns in Filo Pastry, but these were good. The Almond Chicken was basically minced chicken patties rolled in flaked almonds and fried — an unusual (to me at least) idea and very yummy. The ribs were marinaded and cooked in a honey and champagne BBQ sauce; individual portions wrapped in foil — seriously sticky and seriously yummy.
Then we shared a selection of main courses:
Sizzling Seafood in Black Pepper Sauce — prawns, squid, scallops; very sticky; very tasty.
Tsingtao Beer Duckling — slow cooked duck with black mushrooms & peppers.
Pork a la Shanghai — belly pork with ginger, garlic and vegetables in a rice wine sauce.
Pak Choi with Black Mushrooms
Noodles (with all sorts of additives: meat, prawn, squid …)
Jasmine Rice
Somehow we all then managed a pudding, if only crispy fried ice cream!
OK so we didn’t push the boat out with the drink (just a couple of bottles of sparkling mineral water and I had a couple of small beers). But at under £35 a head (including service) for something which was really delicious was very reasonable. If we’re in Oxford we shall certainly go back.
Added to which I spent the meal looking at this painting:

Shanghai 30s, Oxford. Rating: ★★★★★
When we eventually managed to regain full vertical hold, we meandered through Oxford, just enjoying what had turned into a lovely sunny afternoon. And, following a diversion into the Oxfam Bookshop, we adjourned to the King’s Arms for a drink before saying our good-byes.
Basically it was a lovely, relaxing lunch and afternoon; full of chat, catching up and some gorgeous food.

Weekly Photograph

Meet Tilly … the latest addition to the household. She arrived last Friday evening. She is about 12 weeks old, the last remaining kitten of one of our neighbour’s two cats’ recent litters. Although they aren’t brilliant pix, these are two of the first photos of her.

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Needless to say Col. Harry H Katt RN(rtd), 86, of Tunbridge Wells is not at all impressed and is manning the barricades with his old Boer War musket and some rather unparliamentary language. Later today he will be auditioning for the next Victor Meldrew series.
Well you can’t blame the poor old by really; it must be the cat equivalent of giving grandfather a random 5-year-old girl to live with him. I’m sure some accommodation will be found in due time, with the assistance of the UN peacekeeping force.

Left Handers Day

Yep, that’s right, left-handers have their own day on Tuesday 13 August. Celebrate your right to be left-handed.
Although I’m right-handed — very right-handed — I can envisage how frustrating it must be if you are naturally left-handed. And I can also see why for many centuries until fairly recently, left-handedness was discouraged if not actually considered evil … although there are advantages to that: my 97-year-old mother is naturally left-handed and it was only when she changed schools at the age of eight that she was made to write right-handed; as a consequence she is now ambidextrous and can also do mirror writing.


Writing left-handed is fine, but what about all those things like scissors that don’t work in the “wrong hand”. So if you’re left-handed and tired of trying to use gadgets and tools made for right handed people then vent your frustration on 13 August! This is your chance to get your own back on your right-handed friends, colleagues and family by designating your personal space as a “lefty zone” where everything must be done left-handed!
Find more information on Left Handers Day on their website at www.lefthandersday.com

Meh … with Gin and Beer

The last 24-36 hours has been decidedly “Meh”, at best.
It all started yesterday afternoon when I fell asleep in the chair. Which is, of itself, not that unusual. But the thing was that when I awoke I felt decidedly out of sorts: lethargic, miserable (almost depressed) and ratty; generally incapable. Again nothing new there.
Because we were supposed to be visiting our friend Katy in Leicester today, things had to be done. And as it was to be an early start, an early night was desired. Which was good, ‘cos I still felt “meh” and put it down to the inevitable stress of being bright-eyed and bushy tailed long before o’God o’clock.
Signal for the phone to beep, with a text …
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On Saturday we had been out to a local Thai restaurant with friends who had recently returned from holiday in foreign parts. Eldest child (a teenager) wasn’t there ‘cos he was ill with what sounded like ‘flu — the way one does. Anyway we went back to theirs for coffee after the meal as the youngest needed bed before an early Sunday start.
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Anyway the upshot was that the teenager was taken to the doctor yesterday, and then to the hospital, to be diagnosed with a nasty, and rather infectious, foreign disease. Hence the text message. We didn’t at this stage know how far the infection might have spread, so I felt we should warn Katy — and she sensibly suggested we abandon our meet-up.
Well, if nothing else it’s a novel excuse!
And it seemed like a good call.
So we relaxed and drank to the teenager’s speedy recovery with a large G&T. But, unlike in days of yore, “meh”-ness was not abated by internal application of gin.
Sleep finally overcame me at about 1AM. And it stayed. And it then couldn’t find its coat to leave. I finally woke up some time after 11AM. Now not just feeling “meh” but also depressed. Bugger!
This last I do not understand; although there must be a genetic something there as my father was the same. He’d not sleep well but then be dead to the world all morning. I remember him being like this even when I was a teenager. Even on non-work days my mother would be up by about 8.30 and around 9-9.30 bring both me and my father cups of tea (in a desperate attempt to get us out of bed). I’d struggle into consciousness and descend by around 10. But not my father. He’d appear at 11, or later, with the words “It’s very odd, I found this cold cup of tea by the bed”.
My father was little better during the week. He’d normally struggle from his bed after 8AM and expect to catch the 8.33 train. (Luckily we lived 3 minutes trot from the station so he usually succeeded.) As a teenager I got so fed up with his frantic approach to mornings that, by choice, I used to get up at 7 and be out to school (just a mile away) before 8AM.
I recognise this now as all being down to depression; depression which didn’t abate as my father got older: he was no better in his 80s than in his 40s.
So anyway … after lunch today I spent and hour lying in the sun in the garden, enjoying warmth and light; and I then spent the rest of the afternoon “jellivating” — just sitting like a lump of jelly doing naff all of any use.

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And now, this evening, after food? Well I’m aware that I’m still depressed, but do feel a bit better for the food and a couple of large bottles of Peroni. With luck tomorrow will bring something less “meh”; which would be good and appreciated.
Meanwhile this whole depression thing is something I really don’t understand. What causes it? Why is it often so sudden and so variable? Why is it there at all? And what can one do it banish it?
With me a part of it is clearly SAD, but not all of it because I still get it in the summer, and always have. And a part of it could well have a genetic basis — as noted above my father was depressive and I’m told his father was as well. Whether there is any more to it I can’t determine. I suspect there is, but I’ve no idea what. Or why.
Nor do I know how to fix any of it. Yes, antidepressants help, but they don’t cure it. Light therapy for the SAD doesn’t seem to work on me; but then I don’t think SAD is the predominant factor.
The best cure is probably amputation at the neck!
Or just shoot me!
[PS. Seems medics aren’t worried about the spread of infectious disease and were relieved that teenager hadn’t acquired malaria. He’s in for a long recovery though.]

Five Questions, Series 4 #3

So it’s that time again. Well to tell the truth it was probably than time days ago but who round here is clock-watching? Isn’t retirement all about not having to worry about clocks?
Anyway, yes, it is time for an answer to question three in the latest series of “Five Questions”. So here goes …


Question 3: If you could be the opposite gender for a day, what would you do?
To put it very simply: Fuck.
I’ve always wondered what it is like to be female, and especially to have sex — because it seems to me from the outside that sex is a much different experience for girls than for boys.
More importantly, perhaps, I feel I should know, and would like to know, what it’s like to be female. And I don’t just mean the good bits like fucking, but also the messy bits like periods and childbirth. No I doubtless wouldn’t enjoy those bits, but it’s about understanding as well as having fun.
I’m sure if even 10% of men could experience what it’s like to be female, even for just a few days (and conversely 10% of women experience what it’s like to be male) then we’d understand each other so much better and everything would work so much better. Yes, I know we all have these ideas of what being the opposite gender is like, but I suspect they are mostly delusions. And there’s nothing quite like the real thing.
But yes, basically, if I had only one day, I’d fuck. It might be fun, it might be educational and it might even be lucrative. Sounds like a winner to me. 🙂